Monday, March 28, 2011


Growing up, we had pretty simple birthday celebrations. Simple, but special at the same time. I remember starting the day being woken by dad on his way out to work. He'd come in and gently wish us a happy day. Mum would ask us what we wanted for dinner that night. She would always prepare our favorite meal, and the cake too. Mum would pick up unfilled continental cakes, and fill them with the most delicious sweet cream and chocolate filling. Sometimes crazy homemade cakes with purple icing, or singing happy birthday around the kitchen bench. Fun memories of special times together as a family.

I quietly tiptoe into your room to gently wake you. With your dark fuzzy hair sticking out from under your doona, you're grumbling at being woken before 9am. But it doesn't take you long to realize that it's your special day. And with your special day comes a special breakfast. Your big sister has already convinced you that french toast is your favorite breakfast, because that's what she loves to have for breakfast. But you're 5 years old now, and you are putting up a fight and making sure that you get breaky just the way you like it on your birthday.

Tomorrow we will remember Oliver 5 years after his birth and death. It should be a happy day for Leila as we head out to the aquarium and enjoy some time together. There won't be any fuzzy haired boy emerging from the bedding tomorrow, nor a request for special breakfast being made just to his liking. But for my girls I hope we can make March 29th a day of being together as family and enjoying each other, making some happy memories and remembering our precious boy.

happy birthday Oliver

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Saturday, March 26, 2011

to my son


I met a little boy today. He's such a fun kid, full of energy, spunk and laughter. He's your age you know, born the same month as you. Yeah, he just turned 5 a couple of weeks ago, and I realised tonight that he was just a tiny baby at your funeral. Your Dadda and his Daddy were friends when they were kids, so I reckon you would have been great friends with this fun little guy too.

Your big sister had a great time playing with him and his little brother tonight. I'm sure you would have had a ball too. There was Lego all over the place! Trucks and fire engines, pirate ships and airplanes. Even Lego Indiana Jones on the wii!

I sometimes wonder what kind of little man you would be now. Would you be cheeky or stubborn? Would you be rambunctious or maybe a bit timid? Would you like Lego like your cousins do, or maybe airplanes and trains? Grubs and bugs or footy and racing cars?

I should be organizing a birthday party for you for this week, instead I'm planning on just keeping busy so that the reality of the day won't be so suffocating.

I just want to sing happy birthday to you and see a larger than life smile fill up your gorgeous little face, to see you make a birthday wish, to eat chocolate cake together.

To hug you, even just once.

I love you son, and wished you knew just how much I miss you.

Mumma xo

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Friday, March 25, 2011

{this moment}

Heres my moment from the week. A simple, special, moment that I want to pause, savor and remember...

Pizza night!

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Sunday, March 20, 2011

{me and my mumma}

Sharing some giggles with my special little LadyBug.

This photo isn't the best quality. I took it on the internal camera on the iphone which makes it pretty blurry too, but it was just too precious a moment to hit the delete button and have it erased forever.

I find that I can be a bit of a perfectionist when it comes to photos, especially ones of me! But after reading a blog post a friend shared with me (see comments to my last post) I was challenged to start taking more pictures of me with my girls. I know in years to come, when I'm either too old to remember or not here any more to share our memories with them, they will love that I took some photos of our special times together.


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Saturday, March 19, 2011

{this moment}

I was hoping to make this a Friday ritual but I'm already a day behind.

I found this idea over at The Leaky Boob but ultimately it's inspired by Soule Mama's blog. I love the idea of capturing just one moment from the week and sharing it.

Heres my Friday photo...a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember...

If you’re inspired to do the same, leave a link to your ‘moment’ in the comments for all to find and see.


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Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Little victories

As a Mum you tend to make big fusses over small victories... the pee that ended up in the potty rather than the floor... kids eating all their broccoli... that kind of stuff. I think as a stay at home mum, for me anyway, the victories are found in even more obscure places.

Take today for example... I managed to make my own bed! A genuine victory let me assure you, as to be honest, bed making is not often on the accomplished list. So when I had finished making my bed and marveled at how beautiful and organized it made the room look, I knew that it was going to be a productive day.

With the day coming to a close and the princesses in bed, here's a look at some of my little victories today:

* washed and dried 4 loads of laundry. Thanking God for a clothes drier on wet days! Half if it all has been folded too. Double bonus.

* I caught and released a vicious rogue spider! Ok it was a just baby huntsman, and I caught it in a jar and threw it outside jar and all, but this is a huge effort for me! I was being so brave, standing on a kitchen chair, jar and paper in hand. Once it was in the jar I panicked and imagined all sorts of terrible things that spider was going to do to me if I let it out. So LittleBee opened the door for me and once my foot hit the floor the coffee jar and spider were tossed outside in one frantic move. We screamed and slammed the door shut while we watched the little critter trying to race back inside!

* thanks to Pataks we had a lovely chicken korma for dinner, enjoyed by all. LadyBug had her first taste of Indian food! She was impressed. The highlight of the meal was the pan fried roti bread, which I managed to cook one-handed as I juggled a snuggly babe.

* my girls now smell like sweet strawberries after enjoying a warm bubble bath together. And for now they are sleeping. That is the pinnacle of a days success in any mum's eyes I'd say.

Just mundane things really, nothing to get too excited about, but little things that make me smile. Tomorrow will be different, thankfully every day is. I wonder what little victories are in store for me then!

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